Okay.
I’m really going this time.
So catch me.
May 5, 2009
Oblivion isn’t always the best way out.
Damn, I’ll just give up making this protected.
Sometimes, its really kind of hard to try your best at everything. And man, drama just tires you out.
So God knows I’ve tried, God knows how much I’ve always wanted to keep this together, but if this is gonna go on then maybe itss just better to give up and let go. But lets just stop the drama, I seriously can’t take it anymore, please, please just cut it. On top of everything else, this is driving me crazy. Please.
But I just want you to remember that you’re not the only one who was hurt, you’ve done plenty to me. Even now, I don’t really get why but if this continues and every two weeks or so something happens then no I can’t take it we have to stop because then I’ll never know when we really are normal again. So lets cut it out, and give up. I’ve never said this to you, ever, but right now, I’ve had enough.
But I want you to remember, despite everything, it was a wonderful time, being with you, and no matter what,
I’ll always love you.
April 29, 2009
Imagination; rubbish.
Whoever said that creativity is a joy is either a masochist or screwded in the head (probably both, though)
NO I TELL YOU IT SUCKS THE VOICES THEY HAUNT ME
And its really cool how you recognise a person to acknowledge another and watch yourself being reflected in someone else its like a broken VCR history screwing itself over again.
So please, please, please, stop it. Its getting ridiculously annoying.
April 27, 2009
Another solitary light
I haven’t been here long, really.
Its been about five months and its been nice to actually do something of my own volition that I could do and so, yeah.
But its time, like the moodswings of the loose rattling elephant slide, to let go and move on. I’ve not so much as shed this persona to got bored with the name (Heh:)) Well, its been cool.
But now i feel like trailing raindrops down a stained glass window because faded paintmarks on the worn varnish-less parquet floor is the coolest thing ever. So catch me.
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I have a strange feeling I’ll be seeing you.
April 25, 2009
Its history, baby.
Its been a weird week of sorts.
Its had a lot of drama.
Skipping much, I loved yesterday. Really, really did. First we did DNA in LSL and that’s always fun cos you get to mash up poor unsuspecting bits of Kiwi into an unrecognisable brown mush and that’s cool, and warming up the alcohol by mistake and oops mixing the mush and alcohol when its not supposed to mix and wait where’s the jelly white layer thing? (Science with Clar as my partner equals continuous screwing up of experiments I think there wasn’t one where it ewnt perfectly hahah we’re both gonna fail practical)
Then during LA Ms Ham was out on course and so Ms Joanne Lee relieved her (we were supposed to complete our jigsaw infor war thing) and my home group is the coolest thing ever. I HAVE BING SAM STEPH whaddya think? So, Nicolette started it all off (hahah she’s so cute) with her group’s topic on Methods of Torture. And there are some really gruesome and uh, unorthodox methods used. (Catch my drift?)
So it went smth like this:
Nicolette: …forced sodomisation…
Sam: What’s that?
Nicolette: *explains*
Sam: GAY ASS-RAPING!
OMG HAHAHA SERIOUSLY.
Then it was Bingbing’s turn
Nicolette: …sodomisation…using a baton..
Everybody: HUH?
Somebody (crap I can’t rmb who someone tell me): They use a baton to rape them lah!
Bing: So like they stick a baton up his ass?
Somebody: Yeah!
Bing: Ey, ey you know that if you stick something up your butt it makes you want to shit? Really, really, its true! *cue eeew Bing you’re so weird looks* NOOO REALLY I read it somewhere!!
SERIOUSLY. But wait, Bing isn’t done!
Nicolette: waterboarding…gasp for breath..
Bing: GRASP FOR BREASTS?!
THE WHOLE 50 MINUTES WENT BY LIKE THIS.
THEY ARE SO CRAP LAH.
Choling and Steph were so traumatised. NIcolette too, I think. HAHAHAH
Bing, you’re such a retard. Seriously, without you, my life would be much more boring.
Onto the let’s-embarrass-Chengmun-time! Kay, so JGs finals were yesterday and SC was in the 3rd place debate VS MGS. So CM and I decided to leave straight from school. Fast forward to 4.45 and we leave SC for Serene. Ate dinner (very unglam, CM!) and the epic journey of embarrassment starts (actually it started on the overhead bridge before gettuin on the bus but NVM). So, we decide (with our hands full of stuff) to buy the seniors a bouquet of keychains. It only has three so we plead the lady to wrap in two more and hurry. CM rushes off to buy icecream for us and soon produces two very melting cones from the McDonalds. We both juggle files, books, a boquet that NO DONT SPILL ICECREAM ON IT and two cones that are melting, and run to make the green light.
Not pretty.
Chengmun suddenly goes: OH SHIT OH SHIT I THINK I… *waves the bouquet around frantically*
in the very loud, deafening CM voice. She has icecream on her nose forehead(O.O) cheeks, and its dripping on her skirt, carrying a geog textbook and a vanilla cone and waving a blue-green shiny paper ploofy thing around.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
Yes, but we made it to Nanyang on time, managed to sign the card, push it at teh seniors and sit down. Jeez, finally.
What a day.
PS TO SENIORS: its been many many trying weeks and we all know how much effort you’ve put in and how much emotions you’ve wasted stressing over it when you could be using the extra to PMS and in the end to be disappointed, its crazy. You all were really stunning that night and you deserved the win and BS but NVM now its all over beacuse no matter what you guys were the better team and you all get trophies and 4 looks nicer than 3 anyway, even numbers are cool. No matter what, SCdebate loves you forever and ever.
LOVELOVELOVE.
April 18, 2009
Requiem (no I don’t know what it means, it sounds cool)
Oh ewwwwww what’s up with all the talented people, seriously. All of a sudden, there’s been this influx of new talented people in showbiz and everytime they ome on stage the judges go WHOAH YOU ARE PRO and the audience is wild. Oh maybe some of the acts aren’t so new maybe I just found them but still. Talented people make you feel inferior. Especially when they do things I can’t do like dance or sing, hmm sucks to be tone-deaf, jeez.
1. The one that’s all the hot waffles now, Susan Boyle. Oh my bloody hamsters, that woman can sing. I mean she can sing, but then again, almost everyone in Broadway can sing. Its just that she got on a reality tv show where they are mean and laugh at you cos you look different and so they think you can’t sing and you stun them with your wonderful vocals. Okay. She’s good. But after Paul Potts and Andrew Johnston you think those weird people on BGT would actually learn.
2. Okay this one’s oldish. George Sampson ring any bells? The cool street dancer who OMG LOOK HE CAN NEARLY DISLOCATE HIS HEAD AND MOVE IT TO THE LEFT and is really, really slick on the dancefloor. HE LOOKS LIKE A LITTLE BOY (when he first auditioned in 2007 when he was 13 he looked 10, seriously) But now he’s a big oaf and 16 so not cute anymore. (HAHAH PAEDOPHILE TENDENCIES EFFECTIVELY QUASHED) But yeah he still can dance.
3. Flawless. They’re a dance group of alot of people. Alot. If you don’t know them, check them out on youtube. They have to be the single act in history that Simon Cowell stood up for. Not flawless, but certainly close enough for the difference to be negligible.
4. Zara Larsson. She’s not as good as say, Susan Boyle or as stunning as Connie Talbot (remember her?) but yes she is good. Swedish, so I doubt many people’ve heard about her, she won the Swedish version of BGT (Talang) in 2008, and yes she’s that good enough, I suppose. But the really outstanding thing about her is her ability to sing in English. It is wonderful. And her accent is non-existent and her transitions are smooth, no fumbling. Really good, you’ll have to admit, for a ten year old.
5. Sebastian Krantz. Okay. Other than looking like a young version of Backstreet Boys and Westlife mixed up together (and the fact he sings in Swedish) he’s not that outstanding. He’s got an okay voice, not the best, and he sings pop/country, so whaddya think? But ahaha he’s just here cos he has the coolest hair and, you know, that charm that adolescent guys want so badly (he made a girl cry by kneeling and looking meaningfully into her eyes. While singing, duh.) But otherwise, another teen idol that you’ll probably never hear about because, oh you know, he’s swedish and unlike Zara Larsson, cannot sing in English so he’ll never break this side of the pop world.
(6. HAHAH I HOPE SHE DOESN’T FIND THIS AND KILL ME: Nicole Clarabelle Effendy. Someone scout her already. She teaches hiphop at 16, for goodness’ sake. She is just pure cool [now she can't find this or we'll never see her ego again] and seriously, watch her and get ready to go OMG, PROOOO. )
Okay watch all these people and mourn with me if you are tone-deaf and unco like me. (ITS SO SAD SOMETIMES, JESS IS MY COUSIN AND SHE CAN SING HER VOICE IS COOL IT GIVES ME GOOSEBUMPS THE TALENT BUG MST HAVE BYPASSED ME )
Or maybe not. I can sing for you, wanna?
April 18, 2009
Strobe lights and laughter
I like dancing randomly to weird pulsing songs that don’t really make much sense except for the b-bmp b-bmp of rhythm and the chkchkchkaaaaahh rapper-rocker person. Its fun.
Its funner when you’re heralding someone else and trying to make them feel happy cos then you feel happy and its cooler when you have Smily trying to do that hiphop thing where you spin on your head and fail miserably and Marilyn and Joy poledancing (or trying to) around a mortified someone.
I felt the love, it was happy.
Happy Birthday, Yan.
WE LOVE YOU:D
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH (I’ll write you another on Thurs if I have time, yes, this is the unofficial one I just had to do it it was so fun)
April 17, 2009
Divides aren’t always for crossing
Know this, sweet child, just because I don’t tell you so doesn’t mean you can, because in a flour-dusted room devoid of this just means you can keep trying, really.
I HEARTZ YOU.
WATCH OUT, ITS THE BIMBO SPEAK.
